Middle School

And speaking of becoming 6th graders…….this is probably one of the hardest things I’ve had to deal with so far. Sending the boys to preschool – nothing. Sending them to kindergarten – hard but got through it. First grade, being at school all day and eating lunch in the cafeteria – harder yet but still was ok. Stephon going to middle school is making me tear up as I write this. It’s not something I thought would ever come and as it’s nearing it’s really hard to deal with. In March, we had a parent’s night at the middle school for the fall incoming class. The parents and kids both got to go, meet teachers and visit classrooms. I was very silent, didn’t say much. I just went through the motions. We walked around with a few other families that we knew and so I just tried to blend in. One teacher singled me out though! He simply said “is this your first one?” I was just shocked that he even noticed me in the crowd I was with. “Yes, he’s my first,” I answered. He said “it’s ok it’s only middle school – we’re not taking them away from you.” I had to leave the room because I broke down crying. I know it’s only middle school and I know it’s not the end of the world. But it’s my oldest baby growing up faster than my heart is wanting him too. I’m an emotional mess and I can’t imagine how I’ll be in August when it’s time to go back to school….which starts on my birthday….bitter sweet?